The Healing Mountain

He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.”

Mark 5:34

There is something about the mountains I cannot fathom. Try as I may…but to no avail. I remember the first summer my parents took us at the Grand Teton National Park years ago. It was beautiful, but that was only the surface of my understanding. Now that I am older, there is something else I have discovered and being offered.

If I live in the National Park long enough, I may get used to seeing the mountains. I may get tired of it. But I don’t think I will.
Whenever I look up, I see the magnificence of my Creator. The beauty beyond understanding gives me the confidence and relief. For as much of a challenge as it is to climb, air exits out of my lungs freeing the burden I’ve carried in my heart. There is no longer heaviness in my core when I am both in awe and struggling to find air as I pace myself up the hill. I must let go of the old and take in the new.

Then there are memories I still grieve and smile for. I feel as if though I am only here for my brother. I love the outdoors, but sometimes I wonder whether I am doing it for myself.
It is an understatement that I love being in the National Park for many reasons…and maybe because I feel like he’s still around when I am out here. Whenever I am seeking adventure, I feel like he is smiling down on me and cheering for me. That is enough to give me the confidence to climb the mountains I may think impossible.

(This post is not part of “A Confident Heart Devotional”)

Remind Me Who I Am

“One of them, the disciple whom Jesus loved, was reclining next to him.”

John 13:23

During my last night in Laramie, I prayed my last request to God that would finally set me free from my burden I’ve been carrying for so long. It was one of the reasons I’ve lost so much confidence in myself even when I’ve asked God to forgive me. I just couldn’t forgive myself.

I understand that Jesus dying on the cross would and should be enough to convince me that I will be okay even though I wasn’t. There was no effort on my part. I was caging histories that made me feel ugly inside. When I decided to move to the Grand Tetons National Park, I knew I needed to be free from my chains to live to the fullest. It is where I want to find peace and healing.

God exactly did just that. My prayer was answered.

Ever since I arrived at Jackson Lake Lodge, I knew it will be an experience of a lifetime. I have met people who have given me so much more confidence than I have ever given myself. Being in the forest and going on adventures have given me more confidence in who I am in God. Being here is a constant reminder of the promise He has given.